I have never wanted to retreat before. I never needed to back down.
I don’t understand what this feeling is, or where it comes from.
I have always wanted to work things out, despite the difficulties. I seek resolution and closure, so leaving doesn’t help me much.
Somehow I have come around to the idea that not everything can be dealt with, because not everyone is ready to deal, and no amount of my desire can change that.
I want to force people to admit that they made a decision and the consequence is before them, but I need to let the consequence speak for itself.
I find though, that some consequences extend to me, and when it affects me in a bad way, the consequence is my emotional reaction to feeling violated or disrespected. Of course I’m not going to deliver that well. I suck at delivery anyway, but especially when I feel hurt…